Naked
(Tracy Bonham)

My stubborn skin is wearing thin
I bared my soul you waltzed right in
I gave you everything and you just made me feel so very
Naked, and I can't remember how I let myself become so unraveled
I'm naked pretty as a heart ache waiting for my second skin to settle in

I spilled my guts on your best shoes
You keep it in I let it loose
It's only love that makes me feel like getting so completely

Naked and I can't remember how I let myself become so unraveled
I'm naked pretty as a heart ache waiting for my second skin to settle in

Your hardened heart can't hide you now
It loves as much as you allow
And in the end the eyeball army will just take you down and you'll be

Naked nothing but a heart ache and you know there's
Nothing that can hide you now
You're naked pretty as a heart beat going out exactly how you came in.

When I heard it on my iPod I immediately added it to my "L" playlist. This playlist basically consists of songs used as an OST to the show that I liked. Most of the songs on that playlist is in relation with a TiBette scene but this song made me sad even without knowing what the scene was when it was played on the show. When I researched when it was played it made me sadder. It was when Tina went online and started engaging in cybersex with a man. My heart went out to Bette. She was trying to make the relationship work and Tina was being hormonal and was just so hard to please. She really was hard on Bette during those times. Season 3 was the hardest season for Bette. Thus, I didn't watch it that much. Simply because I can feel my heart breaking everytime something bad happens to Bette. I'm just so happy that Season 5 turned out to be a good if not best season for TiBette. Now, I have lots of songs in my head to remind me how they went from bad to best.

The Goddess does it again

Ugh! Utter perfection!

missing

I miss you. For the past couple of days I find myself missing you more and more. I thought I've moved on. For one thing I don't look at you the same way as I did before. You're not on a pedestal anymore. But I still miss you. I kept finding myself thinking about the "What If's". And I kept on looking back at a time where I could've told you how I felt and I know that I had a chance. A chance that you felt the same way. I miss you. I wish I could turn back time but I am not sure if that's what I want. I am happy now. It even surprises me how I can be happy without you. Then again this question lingers on my mind: "What if I told you how I felt and you felt the same way? Would I be happier than I am right now?"

Regrets. I always said that I have none. All along, I have been lying. You. You are one of the things that I regret most. You. We could've been something more. It's not your fault. You were just being you and I was just being me. I was being my usual coward self.