the end of the road

I was asked by mom yesterday if we were in a fight. I told her no but we are in a "limbo" state. Limbo defined by me would be the state of nothingness. Ask me right now what's happening with his life and I don't know how to answer that question aside from "he's at work". Very basic and very unlikely. I am not saying that we should know each other's every move. That shouldn't and should never be the case. It's just that for the past week I feel like I don't know him at all anymore and he doesn't know me. Well, I've been feeling like he doesn't know me all along so what's the point, right? I don't text him anymore and he doesn't even bother to make the first move. I feel like it would always be me that would need to make the first move for us to have the relationship going. Thus, making me feel that I am the only one who is carrying the relationship. And to tell you the truth it's starting to be a burden. A load. It's getting heavy already, unlike before. I'm starting to get tired of making the relationship work. I'm getting tired of working for the relationship. I am getting tired. And so, as my cousin pointed out, I am slowly detaching myself from the relationship so that by the time that I need to let go it would be easier. I also went to church yetserday and cried a little. I asked God why this is happening and what I should do. I told him that I don't know what I'll do without him since I am so used to having somebody by my side. In the end I plainly asked him to give me strength. I need strength because I really feel like we've reached the end of the road.
I need strength.