and then we need to start over again...

Last week has been hell. We broke up last Tuesday night thinking and believing that it would be some time if not never will we be able to get back together. The whole Wednesday was a blur. My heart was hurting because I really and honestly felt that I lost him over something not someone. But at the end of the day we talked and got back together. Up to today I am still quite shaken about what happened. I tend to doubt the words that he tells me especially when he tells me that he loves me. I also doubt that we will be able to get through with this. And I am feeling quite insecure about the relationship. I'm so sad about everything. We lost a month and it felt like we don't know each other anymore. A lot of things has changed or should I say I discovered a lot of things that still leaves me shaken. I am really so sad. I am just wishing that we can go back to the way that it was before or be better. He said that he is willing to work it out though we both know that it will be hard. I am just so sad...