crash and burn

He crashed his car in a gutter last Sunday when he was participating in a motorsport event. The crash triggered a lot of things in me. First, how he constantly lies to everybody and second how expensive the sport is. We talked about it and somehow a few bits and parts makes me sad. If I am to be honest with how I feel about us marrying each other I can say that I want him already to be my longtime partner. He has told me several times that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. But thinking of it, right now he wants other things. He wants to have his own car so he can continue on joining motorsports and between a car and a wedding, I don't think he'll be able to fulfill both financially. Unfortunately, he needs to choose one over the other and the unchosen one would ned to wait. I'm thinking that if it is us who would need to wait, I always keep on wondering how long I have to wait. i just hope that we're still together when he finally decides to settle down. We're not getting any younger anyway...