i don't want this anymore...

I just noticed, he's got Karting and he also joins in Slalom competitions. And through these recreations comes another set of web of recreations and groups that he has given his time and effort. At first it was just one and now there are tons of them already. Makes me wonder, where does this place our relationship? With so many of them out there not including basketball and work, where's the time for us? It seem that if he ever gets the available time that would either be time for us but with so many things going on how much time do we have? He has an event every week including weekends and it seem that the events are going on left and right. Where does this leave us and our relationship now? What is needed and what is not? I don't want this anymore yet my heart tells me I still can't let go. I don't want this kind of life anymore. I don't want this anymore. God, give me strength to let go. Please!