one sunday afternoon

Heck I was sick, literally that my partner was kind enough to watch over me since everybocy else was busy. That afternoon we had a shorrt talk about us. It started with us sitting on the sofa and him looking at me then all of a sudden blurted out: "Let's get married?". I asked him if he was okay, he said yes and he asked me if I had any doubt regarding him being my better half. With all the honesty in my body I definitely would like to marry him, it's just that sometimes I'd rather not admit it thinking that if I get hurt it would be less since I did not expect or let myself expect that we were to end up with each other. For goodness sake, he's my first boyfriend and we're this serious already! I asked him to look at me, I actually grabbed his face and made him look me in the eye and I ask him if he seriously think that the face and person in front of him is the same person that he would like to spend the rest of his life. He answered yes. Then at one point he just blurted out: "Hon, if ever there comes a time, I hope you don't ask me to stop my motorsports career." You see, right now that is his new "thing". I'm still thinking if it's a phase or if it is something that I have to live with for as-long-as-I-don't-know. I told him taht I wouldn't do that as long as he doesn't abuse it. He says the reason why he told me that is because if I were to ask him I do have the power to make him stop. He says that that is how strong my hold is onto him. I hoep that day never really comes. I do hope so...