update

It has been almost a year since my last entry. I should say everything is better now. Better than ever except for a gnawing feeling I get from time to time. It scares me because I feel like my intuition is trying to tell me something yet I'm not finding anything. I feel like he's got somebody else though I haven't found any proof of it. I am being paranoid and I'll drive our relationship out the door if I continue to be like this, I know. My insecurities are eating me away sometimes. I hate myself for being like this.
He on the other hand is still so confident of teh relationship. I really think the tables have turned. Now I'm the one waiting, unlike before.