i need to learn...

Had another realization again yesterday. I need to train myself to be independent, to be on my own and not depend on him at all times. I need to have fun with myself and not think that everything would be funnier if he's around. I need to learn these things so that the next time that we need to let go it wouldn't hurt as much as it did before. I don't ever wanna feel that way again. Thus, I need to learn. I'm not saying that everything is kaput with us again. We're actually doing fine. It's just that I really have the tendency to protect myself and I don't like getting hurt. Who wants to anyway? I just need to learn. I need to love me. I need to learn...