and then came bette porter

Have you ever seen or heard about the show called The L word? well, I stumbled upon the show while I was channel surfing before going to sleep. I've seen the DVD's before but I didn't care but watching it was way, way, way different. I shouldn't have "stumbled" upon it in the first place. Now I am so hooked into it and I am so confused with the feelings it stirs upon me.You see, I have always been confused about what I really am. What emaning if I am a girl, lesbian or bisexual. Since I was a girl I always find myself having crushes on girls. I do have crushes on boys but the ratio is 1 boy crush = 3 girl crushes. I thought that was normal since I can hear my friends saying they have "girl crushes", too. But anyway, seeing the show makes me want to live a life like theirs. Specially my fave character, Better Porter. I have totally fallen in love with her. She's sexy, pretty, headstrong, smart and successful.But still, at the end of it all, I am reminded that I am in a straight relationship and that I am in love with a man. I still love Bette, though! Haha!